Post by Optimism is my Phil-osophy on Jun 19, 2019 8:17:49 GMT -5
I wanted to make a very personal text about myself and did not know where I could write. Then I remembered that I never formally introduced myself to you here. So I'll do this and try to write a short text.
I'm Jean Lucio, and you already knew that. I create theories and hypotheses about ASOUE. And I've been doing this for many, many years ... But I've been doing this only in my mind for a long time. The Netiflix series served as a catalyst in my mind, bringing out old feelings and thoughts about ASOUE.
My mind was exploding and I needed to write. Oh, I'm a writer ... Not that I make any money from it ... I wrote a book that I'm very proud of. And I've tried writing several more. But I could not. Do you know what the problem was? My mind was full of theories about ASOUE. I was trying a creative block that was going on for years. Whenever I emerged inside my mind, to create my own stories, the theories about ASOUE haunted me. It was like a nightmare caused by childhood trauma. Like most writers, the things I imagine have a very big impact on my feelings. When I imagine something, it is as if I have a physical experience. I do not know if there is a diagnosis for this problem.
"Had Beatrice survived? Was Lemony lying?" If you are a writer, you know how distressing it is to have an idea you like very much. You need to expose this idea to people who understand it. It does not have to be people who agree with your ideas, but only who understands them and who is interested in these ideas. You can not move forward until everything you've imagined is materialized in texts. And as I explained, in my own country, all I found was disappointment. A disappointment that only made my state worse. I needed some kind of recognition for my theories. Without that, I could enter into an eternal creative block. So I found 667 Dark Avenue. From the beginning, I felt recognized here. I have had opportunity to put out years of distressing thoughts about a very specific subject that hardly anyone cares about. And now, after many texts, some better than others, and after noticing improvement points in some of them, I can say that I am finally satisfied. If only I could have had the opportunity to read to you, I would be very pleased. But still receive the award for best volunteer, and also the most notorious award, I feel really happy and free. I do not have past theories to argue with you. If by chance I write some text, it will be something completely new. But I do not need to do this anymore. (And I do not even know if that would be mentally healthy). I can finally look at ASOUE not as an inexhaustible source of hypotheses and theories which I have an obligation to unravel everything. I can consider ASOUE as an occasional fun, or even a source of references. Thank you for accompanying me on this freedom journey. I hope you can read something unique mine within a few years. I love you all, even Bear.
I'm Jean Lucio, and you already knew that. I create theories and hypotheses about ASOUE. And I've been doing this for many, many years ... But I've been doing this only in my mind for a long time. The Netiflix series served as a catalyst in my mind, bringing out old feelings and thoughts about ASOUE.
My mind was exploding and I needed to write. Oh, I'm a writer ... Not that I make any money from it ... I wrote a book that I'm very proud of. And I've tried writing several more. But I could not. Do you know what the problem was? My mind was full of theories about ASOUE. I was trying a creative block that was going on for years. Whenever I emerged inside my mind, to create my own stories, the theories about ASOUE haunted me. It was like a nightmare caused by childhood trauma. Like most writers, the things I imagine have a very big impact on my feelings. When I imagine something, it is as if I have a physical experience. I do not know if there is a diagnosis for this problem.
"Had Beatrice survived? Was Lemony lying?" If you are a writer, you know how distressing it is to have an idea you like very much. You need to expose this idea to people who understand it. It does not have to be people who agree with your ideas, but only who understands them and who is interested in these ideas. You can not move forward until everything you've imagined is materialized in texts. And as I explained, in my own country, all I found was disappointment. A disappointment that only made my state worse. I needed some kind of recognition for my theories. Without that, I could enter into an eternal creative block. So I found 667 Dark Avenue. From the beginning, I felt recognized here. I have had opportunity to put out years of distressing thoughts about a very specific subject that hardly anyone cares about. And now, after many texts, some better than others, and after noticing improvement points in some of them, I can say that I am finally satisfied. If only I could have had the opportunity to read to you, I would be very pleased. But still receive the award for best volunteer, and also the most notorious award, I feel really happy and free. I do not have past theories to argue with you. If by chance I write some text, it will be something completely new. But I do not need to do this anymore. (And I do not even know if that would be mentally healthy). I can finally look at ASOUE not as an inexhaustible source of hypotheses and theories which I have an obligation to unravel everything. I can consider ASOUE as an occasional fun, or even a source of references. Thank you for accompanying me on this freedom journey. I hope you can read something unique mine within a few years. I love you all, even Bear.