Post by Deleted on Jun 11, 2022 4:14:17 GMT -5
Sooo..this is my first time here but I just wrote a Lematrice fanfic which I think is pretty cool and I wanted to post it somewhere...
Too Selfish to Stay
It was late at night. 2 am, to be precise. Beatrice didn't know what to do. She was conflicted. She was conflicted and upset and she was crying. They said Lemony was an arsonist. They said all the fires in The City recently had been his fault. But Beatrice couldn't believe that, she couldn't, she didn't dare to. It couldn't be true. Lemony, her Lemony, would never do that. She kept repeating that, as she wrote the 200 paged letter to him, as she slipped the ring off her finger, as she packed both in a box and gave it to the carrier pigeons. God it hurt her to do that. It would break him, she knew. But it wasn't just him, Beatrice was broken too. The silent tears had turned into sobs, and as the carrier pigeons took off, Beatrice put her head in her arms and cried. The accusations weren't the reason she was breaking the engagement. She was ashamed of why, actually. She was breaking the engagement because she wasn't the perfect, selfless person everyone thought her to be. She was doing it because she was scared. Lemony was being accused of serious crimes. He hadn't committed them, ofcourse. Olaf had. But Olaf had riled up the fire starting side of v.f.d against him, and some of the members of the noble side were taken in too. The villains were after Lemony. And thus, they were after everyone around him. Everyone around him was in danger too, danger of being killed, because Olaf would stop at nothing. And Beatrice wasn't brave enough to stay.
She hated herself. She hated that she was so selfish. She hated that she was ready to kill Lemony from the inside, break his heart into a million pieces, for her own reasons. She hated that she knew Lemony felt more deeply than most, hated that she knew he would never recover from this, hated that she knew she was killing herself and him both in one strike, hated that she knew all that yet she was still doing this, for her own self centred reasons. She hated that she wasn't brave enough to stay for the man she loved, hated that she couldn't be like Kit, brave, selfless Kit, who would do anything, anything rather than abandon her little brother, Kit who would willingly give up her life for Lemony, Kit who Beatrice could never be like, no matter how hard she tried, no matter how much she pretended.
And as Lemony received the letter, the ring, as Lemony broke down, Beatrice cried and cried and cried.
When he disappeared, she cried, and when they said he was dead, she cried, because, deep down in her heart, she knew some of it was her fault.
And years later, when Beatrice was married to Bertrand, when she was the mother of three kids, she still never forgave herself, and when the mansion was set on fire, when she was dying, her last thought was that she had failed Lemony, she had betrayed him and she had broken him, all because she was too selfish to stay.
idk if anyone will even read this but if you do please lmk what you think <33
Too Selfish to Stay
It was late at night. 2 am, to be precise. Beatrice didn't know what to do. She was conflicted. She was conflicted and upset and she was crying. They said Lemony was an arsonist. They said all the fires in The City recently had been his fault. But Beatrice couldn't believe that, she couldn't, she didn't dare to. It couldn't be true. Lemony, her Lemony, would never do that. She kept repeating that, as she wrote the 200 paged letter to him, as she slipped the ring off her finger, as she packed both in a box and gave it to the carrier pigeons. God it hurt her to do that. It would break him, she knew. But it wasn't just him, Beatrice was broken too. The silent tears had turned into sobs, and as the carrier pigeons took off, Beatrice put her head in her arms and cried. The accusations weren't the reason she was breaking the engagement. She was ashamed of why, actually. She was breaking the engagement because she wasn't the perfect, selfless person everyone thought her to be. She was doing it because she was scared. Lemony was being accused of serious crimes. He hadn't committed them, ofcourse. Olaf had. But Olaf had riled up the fire starting side of v.f.d against him, and some of the members of the noble side were taken in too. The villains were after Lemony. And thus, they were after everyone around him. Everyone around him was in danger too, danger of being killed, because Olaf would stop at nothing. And Beatrice wasn't brave enough to stay.
She hated herself. She hated that she was so selfish. She hated that she was ready to kill Lemony from the inside, break his heart into a million pieces, for her own reasons. She hated that she knew Lemony felt more deeply than most, hated that she knew he would never recover from this, hated that she knew she was killing herself and him both in one strike, hated that she knew all that yet she was still doing this, for her own self centred reasons. She hated that she wasn't brave enough to stay for the man she loved, hated that she couldn't be like Kit, brave, selfless Kit, who would do anything, anything rather than abandon her little brother, Kit who would willingly give up her life for Lemony, Kit who Beatrice could never be like, no matter how hard she tried, no matter how much she pretended.
And as Lemony received the letter, the ring, as Lemony broke down, Beatrice cried and cried and cried.
When he disappeared, she cried, and when they said he was dead, she cried, because, deep down in her heart, she knew some of it was her fault.
And years later, when Beatrice was married to Bertrand, when she was the mother of three kids, she still never forgave herself, and when the mansion was set on fire, when she was dying, her last thought was that she had failed Lemony, she had betrayed him and she had broken him, all because she was too selfish to stay.
idk if anyone will even read this but if you do please lmk what you think <33